The Vision of My Heart

In the Kitchen

When the vision from God ended, I found myself standing back in the kitchen like nothing had happened. I don’t know how long I was gone for. On the other side, it felt like I had been gone for so long, or like timeless time, but I glanced over from looking at the clock to see that only about three minutes had passed. It was 10:33pm. While I was standing in the kitchen, I felt my heart turn to stone. All of the peace, love, joy, and forgiveness from the vision I had left me and I felt my heart as it truly was from all of the years of hurt and abuse that I had experienced in my life. My heart was so hard and heavy, like it was made of stone. I felt so afraid and vulnerable. Why did God give me this experience, show me all of this forgiveness, peace, love, and joy only to leave me in this state without the feeling of Heaven in my heart? I was so afraid that I felt abandoned by God unsure of what to make of the reality I was presently in. I didn’t know what to do about the condition of my heart and began to cry. Suddenly, the scripture came to me in a vision in my heart which said, “I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.” Ezekiel 36:26

​The Vision of My Heart

That’s when I was taken into another vision, but for this one, I was standing in my kitchen and I could see myself from the outside looking in. God came to me and showed me a second vision, and He took me on a vision into my chest. I could see inside of my chest like it was a room full of darkness. I could see my physical, beating heart sitting in there. My heart looked black, but it was not dark in and of itself. It was as if there was a veil or a shadow over my heart. If I could describe the inside of my chest, it looked like a room with the lights turned off. God showed me that our hearts are like a gateway between the physical world and the spiritual world. What we fill our hearts with affects us on a spiritual level, whether we fill our hearts with good things or bad things. I saw there was like a shadow or a veil over my heart and it was like the consistency of paper mache. It was light and it had no real weight or power. I knew this is what many people call “satan” or “the devil” but this darkness is like a shadow and it has no real power. Then, God spoke to me audibly. He said, “Without Me, your heart is in darkness…” Then, God said, “but with me…

The Light of God

The white light of God shone from out of my heart and burst out like a ray of sunshine. The beautiful white Light of God from the vision was living inside of me. I knew This Light lives within all of us, but people don’t know that it’s there. The scripture verse came out of my heart and toward me as I was watching myself and my heart, “The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.” John 1:5 I remembered what God had written from all those years ago when I was growing up in church.

“…there can be so much peace. Come home.”

On the Floor

The peace and love of God filled my heart. I fell to the floor of the kitchen and cried. I put myself against the wall near the window to contemplate what had just happened. I realized the Christians were right and we were all lost on the Earth living in spiritual darkness without God. We needed God to be our Light.

You are made for Peace, Love, and Joy

Kathryn Elsie