The Day I Died

Walking Out of the Apartment

​A car was coming toward me as it turned the corner into the lot as I was walking toward the car. When the car was about 3 feet away from me, everything became slow motion as I entered into another dimension full of white light (and lots of white and pastel sparkles) that was like waterfalls of light going upwards. It was like everything around me in the physical world disappeared and I felt only total peace, love, joy and ecstasy as God came to me and said, “It’s your time” in a sentence that floated toward my heart.

When God said this, I felt a great sense of relief that my life was finally over. God explained to me without words that I’ve completed all of my lessons or experiences that I had come to Earth to learn. He told me that while my life did not look very accomplished on the outside (like many of my friends who became doctors and physicists), He showed me my life was very accomplished on the inside, on an emotional level, where it counted most to God. I knew this was the only learning that truly counted.

When God said this, I felt a huge sense of relief. I said something to God like, “Good! Because I am tired of Earth life!” I had spent years trying to go through high school and college and struggled to keep up with my peers. While I loved learning and was often a teacher’s pet or straight A student, I felt I had a much easier time learning things on my own than when I was in school. I had dreams of getting a PhD and becoming a scientific researcher in the field of biological anthropology or human genetics, but the closer I got to 30, the less it looked like that was going to happen. All of my friends at the time were very successful academically on the outside. They didn’t start college late like I did and were busy becoming doctors, particle physicists, pharmacists, geophysicists, and computer scientists. I hung out with them and felt like we were on equal grounds intellectually, but I was nowhere near the same place in my own career or academic journey. I felt some sense of shame around this because I had hopes and dreams, but when God reassured me that I was very accomplished emotionally on the inside, I felt I could let my ideas of success go and not worry about this part of my life.

Going to Crystal City

I looked down and a vision appeared in my chest around my heart. I knew this was a vision from God and it was or would be God’s way of communicating with me. It was a vision of a place called Crystal City.

The city was glassy blue and sparkly. It appeared like a painting to me. If I could describe it, I would say it looked like Emerald City from the Wizard of Oz, but icy blue. It was like the city was made of glass or crystal.

I was so excited to be going to this city. I said in my heart, “Oh my God, I’m going to Crystal City!” Then, God “came down” to me towards my face or my chest and told me audibly, “On Earth, they call this ‘The Kingdom of Heaven.’”

It was like God had a sense of humor and was winking at me or using finger quotes when He said this. I understood immediately from this that the bible uses different language than is used in the other realms or on the other side.

When God told me that I was going to Heaven, and I fully realized this, I was so happy and so thankful that I was counted worthy by God to go to Heaven. I began to cry. Years ago, I had a brush with death as an atheist where I choked on a giant pill on Mother’s Day and the ambulance had to be called because my mom could not perform CPR. I remembered worrying about whether I would die and looking toward a window with fear of the uncertainty of what would happen if I died. This experience came to my mind, and I thought how grateful I was that I knew my eternal destination and had no fear!

I had also been an atheist for 15 years and had hurt so many people in my lifetime. God could’ve been unkind toward me or had any reason to turn me away from Heaven, but He didn’t. It was exactly as the scriptures or the Christians had said, that if you believed in Him, you would go to Heaven! The feeling of going to Heaven was like a dream come true. I could not imagine any better reality or future to be living in. I could not imagine a happier ending to my story.

Leaving My Body

My soul left my body and I started to go up very fast. My soul was this giant oval-shaped crystal or diamond the size of a football and I lived inside of it and could see out of it in every direction. I knew this was my true self and who I really was. I understood that we are not our bodies at all, and everything to do with the body is left behind. I could also see myself from outside of my my soul leaving Earth and going up to Heaven. It was like I was watching a movie. I could see and feel myself from within this diamond or crystal as though I was in it and I could see and feel myself from outside of it looking from the outside in, seeing everything at once in from different angles that occurred in interdimensional shifts that appeared like flashes or layers of light. Each glimpse I took, a flash of light appeared like a pane or a window of glass where I was looking. I was both outside of and within myself watching it all happen like a movie, knowing God was with me (beside me) and above me as He was taking me to Heaven. God appeared with me (beside me) during this experience almost like an invisible cloud and in Heaven, like a cloud.

The Scene of the Accident

I saw my body (Kathryn) on the ground of the parking lot, as though the car had just hit her and she was lying there dead. I wasn’t afraid of seeing her like this. It was like watching the scene of an accident in a movie or a crime tv show where the body is laying on the ground. On the outside world or to the people down below, it would’ve looked like a horrible accident had occurred and a young woman just died, but to me, I felt great peace. I said something like, “Oh, there she is” sort of calm an nonchalantly and waved at her like I was waving bye and going off to a better place.

The Golden Cord of Light

As I looked toward the people on Earth, I noticed there was a golden cord of light going through everyone’s chest or heart center. This golden cord connects every human being on Earth. As close or as far away one human being is from another, is as close or as far away the connection or the cord is. The cord ultimately forms people into something like a giant tapestry and our lives become woven together on a spiritual level through these cords.

A Symphony of Souls

God then showed me all of the souls on the Earth being orchestrated like a giant symphony. I could see every soul as though it were a sparkle of light in an ocean. It was like seeing a wave on the Earth of millions of sparkling crystals or diamonds and each of those diamonds shining at a different frequency , reaching a different height within their life span, and echoing a specific sound into eternity at the height and the weight at which they were. The shapes and weights and sounds of each of these crystals or souls which were the souls of the earth had a different frequency and sound and no one was less than the other because each was necessary to create this symphony of music God was creating through them. Each had a beauty. I had played the flute as a girl and had wanted to join the Pensacola symphony when I grew up! I loved music and I think this is why God showed me in this way. I saw each of the souls producing an individual light that rose up like streams of light toward God or Heaven and God weaving everything together.

God showed me that every soul on Earth is in God’s hands and He is working all things together for good. He showed me or explained that it doesn’t mean that everything in life will be good, or that we will only have good things happen to us, but it will be created into an ultimate good. Like, when someone breaks a leg, it isn’t necessarily God’s will, but God will take this bad thing and make it into an ultimate good. This is what God is doing with every soul and every single life on the Earth that belongs to Him. This is not just about us, and our lives, but for everyone. For instance, someone might have a life event that seems not good, but this may be for the good of another soul on Earth. In this, our lives and our pain can end up being very altruistic. God also showed me when I was seeing all of the souls on Earth being orchestrated into this symphony of life, that nothing unloving comes from God. He showed me that when something unloving or unkind happens in a person’s life, like abuse, or someone being mean or unkind, it isn’t necessarily God’s will and that it was important for humanity to know this and understand it. God’s will is love and when we act unlovingly or unkind towards others, it is never the will of God. God is the love we share and when people act in love and kindness, this is what comes from God. God showed me or explained to me this verse when he was showing me this:

“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28

(There almost wasn’t a time when a scripture wasn’t revealed to me from the bible when God showed me the vision. It’s like he used scripture to explain what was happening. During this process, I think He was teaching me scripture and writing it on my heart or chest.)

Jesus as The Father

During this experience, Jesus came to me. He came to me as a figure of white light, but I knew He was wearing a white robe with a sash around His waist. His arms were open, and He looked like a Father figure or a being of pure, white light. He showed me that if people would relate to or see Him like a loving Father, they would have a much easier time relating to Him. God and Jesus are one and the same, so you cannot separate God from Jesus. This was explained in an instant. When you look to God, you will see Jesus, and when you look to Jesus, you will see God. This is what Jesus means when He says, “I and the Father are One.” Jesus and God are one and the same person. He wanted me to know or explain to humanity that it is best to relate to Jesus as you would a loving Father, and that He is not anyone to be afraid of.

When He came to me, I looked over His right shoulder and I saw the Alpha and the Omega, or the beginning and end of all humanity’s timeline on Earth. I saw all of the world events from the time of Adam and Eve in the garden, to the time of the end where there would be a lot of wars on Earth. Each event or time in Earth’s history was segmented or separated like little eras. When I saw humanity’s timeline, the symbols Alpha (Α) and Omega (Ω) appeared next to Jesus. He showed me that even though there will be many wars and much destruction on the Earth, we do not need to worry about them.

He showed me that it is “our generation” that will see the return of Jesus and we do not need to worry about this. He said that, if we have the Holy Spirit, then He will come get you. He showed me that it’s like Star Trek, where it is like be like, “Beam me up, Scotty!”

When Jesus showed me this, it eased all of my fears. I had so many fears about the last day when I was growing up in church, worried I wouldn’t be taken, or what it would be like. However, God showed me this is not something anyone has to fear and it’s very simple. God showed me there is no judgement for anyone on Earth. If you belong to Him, He will come get you or beam you up!

God on Healing

I was then shown by God that not every person on Earth during this time will be healed physically. He showed part of this is due to a time and place before our Earthly existence called pre-birth that every soul comes through before they come to Earth. I saw this time pre-birth place like a little square cutout in the Earth’s atmosphere that led to a place in the universe where we jump through or come through in order to get here into our bodies. In the pre-birth existence or place, each of us creates soul contracts about our lives on Earth. God showed me that a lack of physical healing could be part of a pre-birth contract and that physical healing is not the most important thing for a person to seek during this time. God is much more concerned during this time with the heart and for people to learn to forgive one another. It is like you could have a broken leg, but God is much more concerned with the condition of your heart. This is much more important to God than physical healing.

Everyone is Fine

As I was going up, I saw the Earth I was leaving behind. I saw the city of Austin and the grassy parks. I saw my boyfriend in the apartment where he was at and I saw my mom in Alabama where she was at on the Earth. I looked at both of them and knew they would be “fine.”

Ecstasy and Joy

As I was going up higher, I began to accelerate very fast. I felt like I was going up through this waterfall of white light like a rocket ship and the feelings of peace, love, joy and ecstasy were increasing exponentially to the point that I was about to explode. I saw layers of ecstacy that there are on our journey to Heaven, and each layer increases in a measure of 10,000. It was like 10, 000 x 10, 000 x 10,000 going whoosh, whoosh, woosh! I was so overwhelmed by the feeling that I was going to explode, that I was almost afraid. As I was going up, I was full of so much ecstasy, I felt like I was going to explode to the point that I could not contain it any longer and could burst from having so much ecstasy!

Looking Back towards Earth

As I looked down towards Earth over my right shoulder, I was somehow in outer space and yet still surrounded by this white light or white waterfall of light. The Earth was gradually decreasing in side, but as I looked towards the Earth, I could see all of these hearts. These hearts, however, were like shadow hearts. Their hearts were in darkness because they did not know God. I could feel God and the angels, how there was no judgement for them, but it was simply that they did not know God in their heart, so their hearts were not lit up with the Light of God. Each of these hearts were connected on a network around the Earth, that looked almost like a cast net, as well, like the souls with the golden cord, but instead of the golden cord, these souls were connected by a cord of darkness. It was like their hearts were all connected in a network around the Earth, and they did not know God. I felt so sorry for them, that I turned toward God and said something like, “Oh, my God! They were just like me! I was an atheist and didn’t know you, but the story you gave me with the vision and what you have shown me in the last few days could save them.”

Sent Back

Immediately, I was plunged back into my body. In one second, with no conversations or questions from God, my soul immediately returned to my body. I saw myself enter my body, at a moment just before the car accident. I found myself looking back down on myself, headed back toward Earth, but this time Kathryn (she) was standing upright. God shifted the dimension of time so that the car did not hit me and I did not die, and my soul went back into my body. The next thing I knew, I was standing there looking at the car toward my right, walking back toward the apartment, watching the car suddenly swerve to avoid me, and I was not hit.

I was so thankful God did not allow the car to hit me and damage my body, because I think I would’ve had a very hard time with this and could not handle it emotionally. I knew God had rescued me from the experience of going through an actual car wreck and I was sent back without a bruise on my body.

However, I remembered everything that just happened. I knew God had to change the dimension of time in order for me to come back into my body since I was supposed to die and go to Heaven.

Quickening of the Spirit

I felt so much shaking energy inside of my body, like, “I need to find some women of God.” I was shaking with like a quickening of the Spirit, and suddenly, for one moment, I said, “I’m no longer afraid of death!”

However, almost instantly, all of my old fears from Christianity came back to me. Even though I just had this wonderful experience, I had so many bad experiences with church and Christianity, but God showed me when I came back into my body that trauma and things like unforgiveness are stored in the body and not in the soul. The soul is the perfect pure part of you that comes from God. Knowing this, I tried to hang onto the goodness of what just happened and what I had just experienced.

God is Good

I walked back into the apartment feeling so much joy and ecstasy, but also all of this uneasiness and worry of what it meant to come back to Earth. I saw my then-boyfriend who was watching TV and sitting on the couch, knowing He might not be able to logically or emotionally handle what I had just went through and, sat next to him and said, “You know, I think God is good.”

You are made for Peace, Love, and Joy

God Bless,
Kathryn Elsie